It's a little disappointing to be here again to say this...
But we have no news. I had hoped we'd have the best news yet to share with you by now.
I couldn't let our blog sit silent for more than a month, so I figured I'd just come and share my heart with you.
It's been 8 weeks and 5 days exactly since our dossier was sent to China.
And last I heard - our social worker checked in with our agency almost five weeks ago and was told they thought we'd receive our referral "soon." Our latest agency update showed they received very few files from their orphanage partnerships that month, so that could explain the waiting.
So now to share my raw-and-real-heart with you..
This process is a lot of "hurry up and wait." You rush like crazy to get paperwork done, then just wait. And wait. Then rush again. And wait again. And when the waiting is longer than you expected, your heart can't help but feel there is something wrong (even if there's truly no reason to feel that way). I've recently asked God, "Was there something on our medical needs chart we were supposed to check off??" My heart felt pulled toward a particular need many months ago, and for reasons unsaid, we just couldn't bring ourselves to check the need off. To think we may have written off a need God may have been leading us to is painful to think about -- after-all, we yearn to please our sweet Lord and to be in His ever-perfect will, and we know all-too-well that in order to do that we must lay down our fleshly-desires and pick up His. Sometimes though? It's just overwhelmingly hard to figure out which ones are ours and which ones are His...
And friend, it's honestly a little tough to see others receive their referrals or exciting updates while we're just over here banging our heads against the wall wondering when we'll ever be called. It's also tough to see sweet little guys with other agencies waiting -- and boy are there are so many! I see them waiting, and I think, "WHY ARE WE WAITING if there are so many lil guys WAITING?!"
I know you're probably wondering, "If there are SO many kiddos waiting, what's taking so long?" There are many children waiting with our agency currently, and many waiting with other agencies, as well as on the 'Shared List'..but my assumption has to be that there are no children that fit our family's profile currently designated with our agency. There is a great need for families to step up and open their hearts and homes to these children. The more families there are, the wider the net is for varying needs -- in the end placing more waiting children in loving families.
So how can you pray? Thanks for asking. :-) Here are a few ways:::
- Please pray that we have peace and discernment when reviewing the file we're referred. Please pray that the first file we will receive will be *our* child's file. While I know it happens, we just don't want to have to turn down a file because we feel their need(s) are too much for where we are currently. We pray and hope we have immediate calming discernment when we open their file.
- Please pray over the grant applications we have submitted, and will continue to submit. Being awarded any of these grants would help us cover some of the biggest upcoming fees -- overall helping to take some of the financial load off of the process.
- Please pray for our little one. We may not know who our child is yet, but God does. Pray that He comforts and provides for their needs while they wait for us, and we wait for them.
If you've read this post this far -- thank you! And thank you for praying. You have no idea what your prayers mean to us. Like I said in an earlier post -- there's no doubt in our minds that prayers have carried us this far in the process.
And lastly, I hope we have AMAZING news to share with you in our next post!! We're hopeful we will so STAY TUNED!! :-)
Picture below:: Check out the sweetest lil figurine our daughter made and placed in her dollhouse -- she said it's me holding our "China baby." :-)
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