This blog post was posted in May -- so, you're basically reading our feelings and thoughts in the pre-adoption process. :-)
It started in April. It was as though once the last barrier that had kept us from moving through with adoption was torn down, it came down completely, and it was as clear as day that adoption was in our plan, and in that plan soon. Adoption has always been tucked away in a little cabinet of our minds since marriage. And the seed of adoption was sowed for me as a little girl. Over the past few years that little seed has grown vigorously. Just here and there, little thoughts or happenings would hit me like a ton of bricks. My mom, not knowing it, helped water that seed for instance. A few years ago she bought a book for me to read to my kids about adoption with a little girl in it with my name, Robin. She of course didn't mean anything by it, but by the end of the book my heart was pumping and I was holding back tears. Over this past winter, I couldn't look at little tots without the thought in my head. In fact, I'd almost cry at times. My heart felt as though it was being wrung to the point I could barely stand it.
Over-time, adoption would overwhelm every ounce of my being. It..just..would...not...leave...my...head. I'd research daily, read blogs, go through waiting child lists, you name it. It consumed me. I had dreamed about adoption in various forms over the past few years, but those dreams and thoughts were increasing. Coincidental happenings would take place as though God was dropping a sign here and there. But once Billy and I tore down that last barrier which had kept us from seriously considering it -- that was it; it was an instant mutual 100% decision between the two of us. While I was worried at first that I was more on board with the decision than he, he'd remind me how much he wanted and needed this too. One night he told me, "I just want them in my arms. As soon as possible."
So, here we are, in our "pre-beginnings" of adoption. Tonight we meet with a social worker that works with the adoption agency we plan to submit our application to. While this isn't an official step in the process, it's a pre-step, and we are so excited.
We know there will be many questions from family and friends. We made a basic FAQS page from our blog homepage in the bar at the top. If you're a family or good friend -- I'd highly appreciate taking the time to quickly read through it. You may be surprised what type of questions or statements you may hear when talking to others about our adoption process.
I'm keeping this blog nice and short. With that said, we're beyond elated to begin this journey, and share it with you.
Zài jiàn for now!
